It’s A Date!

I went to see a rather awful show the other day. Terrible, actually, but the wonderful people I went with more than made up for it.

…Oh, along with the awesome truffles I made to bring along, of course!

They were very, very good. Even my non-health-freak friends thought so. They munched on them happily whilst the actors tortured us, not even thinking about buying the usual junk food that accompanies a theatre trip.

Sweet success! And, they’re really easy to make – joy!

Here’s what you’ll need:

15 or so dates,

a teaspoonful of honey,

a tablespoonful of Cacao powder

a pinch or two of cinnamon,

a tablespoonful of coconut oil,

a handful of dessicated coconut.

If you aren’t that concerned with making them super healthy, or don’t have some of those ingredients to hand, the coconut oil can be swapped for butter and the cacao for regular cocoa powder.

SO, here’s what they look like:

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AND here’s what you do:

Take your dates and tip them into the food processor, blending until they make a sticky, sweet mix that bunches together.

Whilst you’re doing that you can be melting your coconut oil, cacao, honey and cinnamon into a syrup on the hob, medium-or-less heat.

Once your dates are gooey enough for your satisfaction simply pour them into a mixing bowl, scraping the sides of the blender with a spoon, and pour the syrup you’ve made over the top.

Mix well so that the stuff gets even stickier. It should be coming together easily now (and tasting really good!)

On a small plate pour your dessicated coconut and then roll the date mixture into balls – you choose how big and how many – rolling them lightly in the coconut once that’s done.

Put the truffles onto a baking tray and freeze for an hour or so.

Enjoy!

Told you it was easy. And very healthy 🙂 No need to feel guilty whilst consuming these little beauties.

Now onto a different type of date…of the romance variety. I have one tonight with a young man who will be known here as army lad because…he’s in the army, and I can’t think of a more original fake name thing.

But anyway, wish me luck! Next post is Quinoa Pizza which I’ll be attempting tomorrow whilst my friends dine on the ready-made but not-as-healthy variants from Pizza Express.

x

Desert Places

“They cannot scare me with their empty spaces
Between stars – on stars where no human race is.
I have it in me so much nearer home
To scare myself with my own desert places.”

Robert Frost knew his stuff. He knew about humans, about Humanity. He really did. In this stanza of his he manages to capture the feeling that lies in us all from time to time – melancholy mixed with fear. The place we don’t want to explore or acknowledge because it is frightening.

I think we are all born with light and dark in us, and it’s luck that defines which way we swing. Just as we are capable of immeasurable good, there is also potential for evil, and that is frightening.

Occasionally I find my mood sinking, and I stare testily into space. It’s like somebody is spreading some huge piece of cloth over my thoughts, casting them in shadow. I can’t help but see the worst, and reflect on the bad parts of my life. I am dragged into my ‘Desert Places’, a cynical inner narrative providing the guided tour.

This happens. I admit it. It’s hard to claw my way out of it sometimes, but I’ve managed thus far.

I would not, however, be rid of them. I think the key is understanding our darker emotions, rather than discarding them. It’s impossible to clear away bad memories entirely and we shouldn’t strive for that –  it’s what makes us. I think we can learn from each bad experience, and that those memories should stay with us until we have gained everything we can from them. At that point they can take a back seat, there to remind us what not to do.

“Don’t ever take a fence down until you know why it was put up.”

Another favourite of mine from Mr. Frost. What a man!

So self-knowledge, then. That’s what I’m trying for.

Gosh, okay, I know this was supposed to be a food blog! I think food comes into that too though, at least for me. Because of my intense relationship with eating, because I did go through the eating disorder and come out vaguely on the other side, I need to know that darkness. I need to draw on it and turn it to good. Hence all the healthy stuff and documenting it, my reasons for it, and the results of it. Self-knowledge.

On that note, my next post shall be about Date Truffles.

“Something we were withholding made us weak, until we found it was ourselves.”

x

“For I have lea…

“For I have learned to look on nature, not as in the hour of thoughtless youth, but hearing oftentimes the still, sad music of humanity.”

I love this quote from William Wordsworth. It is like a really classy way of saying ‘yolo’. I think it shows that as humans we can forget our own beginning, and that everything we have and know comes from nature. When you look at it this way, it becomes easier to accept the things that happen and to move on from them. Nature is cyclic and seasonal – we should be too x

In The Beginning

I don’t suppose, in this world of media, of updating constantly, discovery and re-appraisal, that I can have anything new to say! It seems very arrogant of me to assume, furthermore, that people will want to read my musings, but I feel so inspired to share them that I’m going to disregard that and soldier on.

So, after that negative start…hello!

I’ll try to give you an idea of who I am because I think it would be odd, reading the words of a stranger. I recently turned 19 and am living at home after two years away at music school. I suppose I’m on a Gap Year technically, though I’m not doing much travelling. (I decided to work instead, you see, to help my parents pay for the next stage of my education.) So in a rather bizarre turn of events I’m currently a receptionist, which isn’t weird in itself, but seems very random to those who know me. I’m extremely disorganized and rather haphazard, and put that together with ‘I’m training to be an Opera Singer’…well, you get the picture. It surprised a lot of my friends.

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But such is life.

So yes, life. In September I will be attending the Royal Academy of Music in London as a Mezzo-Soprano which I’m incredibly excited about! Music is a passion I feel very lucky to have and I’m very grateful for whatever it is that made me start singing. I can be so focused on it, and in the best moments feel wrapped up in the music. Of course I can’t acheive that all the time. A lot of the time I tend to feel frustrated with my voice for not meeting my own (unrealistic) standards, but that is the same for anybody with any skill. I am glad of that mindset as it means I am always striving to improve, express and communicate.

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I am religious but not in the ordinary sense. For most of my life I was a Christian, but as I grew older I grew unsure. A lot of things in the bible didn’t make sense to me and I found myself unable to relate with God…he was an idea. For me, I realize now, worship and faith has to be centered in what I know and can feel. So two years ago, whilst drinking herbal tea with friends, I voiced this. One of those friends asked me if I could explain what I did believe in, which I attempted to do. At the end of my rambling speech about beliving in what is real but mystical she summarized that it sounded a lot like Paganism.

Bingo.

It felt immediately like something had clicked into place for me. Nature has always been a huge part of my life. Loving it has always been a huge part of me. I was known for going into raptures about flowers, the environment and (to a lesser extent) earth. I have always felt a strange but strong pull towards nature, like I can’t get closer enough to it.

My friend was right. I did some research…a lot of research, and discovered Pantheism.

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It wasn’t a ‘revelation’, it didn’t ‘change me’…I already was a Pantheist, I just didn’t know what to call it. Since finding out what it was called however, I have felt much more comfortable, and able to express myself in terms of it, which is always nice 🙂

I think I’ve gotten distracted actually, so back to food, though if you have questions or comments about any of that stuff go right ahead and ask.

I have an odd relationship with food.

For a couple of years I suffered with an eating disorder which sort of became a religion unto itself. Of course it didn’t disappear, and I feel it lurking still, but it is dormant. This blog is part of my attempt to keep it that way. Since discovering the true, real benefits of eating, but eating healthily, I’ve got so much better, and I want to share what I’ve learned and am learning.

Moving to Music College will be an upheaval for me, and living on a budget will make it difficult to eat well, so my worry is that I will revert back to bad-me and stop eating again. I don’t want that…I like good-me! I’ve missed her xD

I have finally understood that the body has a need for reverence, and it gives everything back that you put in.

So whilst I’m still at home, comfortable and very loved, I’m going to experiment and learn how to eat well and treat myself well, without paying stupid amounts. In short, I’m going to assert myself.

I hope you’ll stick around for recipe’s, tips, thoughts, pictures and probably at least one epiphany.

Katie x